Carl

i wanna die

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 02 Feb 2002 05:54:28 GMT

well today fucking suxed yeah i went to a party for HELEN and she just decied that she wouldn't talk to me or eaven look at me so i just sat there and did nothing but then she deied to start makeing out with this other guy and i was like ok what ever so i go into the other room and here she comes with that guy so i leave again and she decied to stay in one spot and make out so i just sat there and did nothing again and here come some people and talk to me i am like ok sitting there talking and then every one keeps telling me she is making out with a different guy and i just don't knoe what i am going to do!!! I WANNA DIE noone fucking cares about me any more and people say they do but i can't beleave that any more cause that is what helen said too so fuck every thing i wanned to live for life just fucking sux and i wanna die

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Tue, 29 Jan 2002 05:34:27 GMT

butterfly71418: what u leave for
CemeteryGates420: i had to restart
butterfly71418: ha ha, told u stop fucking it
butterfly71418: u'r doing it to hard
CemeteryGates420: lmao
butterfly71418: u should ask joe and jeff for pointers, their comps still work so they must not fuck it so hard.
CemeteryGates420: lmao
butterfly71418: am i funny, i was being serious
CemeteryGates420: fuck that that is just rong
butterfly71418: lol
butterfly71418: thats funny shit.
butterfly71418: u know they are just j/k about that
and kelley don't hate me eathor WOOHOO

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Mon, 28 Jan 2002 10:47:42 GMT

i feel like shitt i don't knoe why i really need to talk to helen but i don't knoe maby she don't wanna talk to me maby she hates me too huh ok i am going to go now i don't knoe what i am going to go do but it will proully sux like my whole life does ! later ~CARL~

hmmmmmmm

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 24 Jan 2002 17:26:46 GMT

i think every one but shelly and Autumn hate me and i don't knoe what i did noone will talk to me becieds them yeah i knoe i spell shitt rong i don't give a fuck i don't think any one is going to read this so fuck it well later ~CARL~ oh yeah and shelly called me a dork :) :) :)

wtf is happning

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Dec 2001 06:24:10 GMT

i think i wanna die again who fucking knoes why i hate fucking stuff now there is like 5 things i see to live for Mollie Autumn Shelly Laney and my computer is that any thing really is that really worth living for ???????? yeah so what 4 people say i should not die that would sux yeah would it really? i don't knoe what to do i think there is really no point to live i am not going to have kids i am not going to do any thing that is good for anyone else there is really nothing i can think of to live for i mean yeah i have a few friends i really care about i don't knoe i am allllll fucked up but fuck it i need to talk to someone but i can't trust any one what am i suppose to do now yeah people say that there is always someone to talk to there isn't fuck that ok i guess if i make it home from florda i will talk to the people that i care about

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Dec 2001 03:03:46 GMT

noone ever want's to talk any more it sux there ant any thing to do i am all messed up

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Nov 2001 23:24:56 GMT

yeah i am happy cause helen is talking to me i haven't talked to her in forever well i got to to i thnk mollie is mad at me well i hope not but whatever i will talk to every on later Carl

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sun, 25 Nov 2001 21:10:50 GMT

i don't knoe what is going on in my life that anyone cares about i am kina happy cause i am talk to Autumn and Mollie but i am confused abut why i am living and shitt like that but what ever noone cares so right in here later CARL

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Nov 2001 03:39:21 GMT

i am sooo happy i am talking to laney and we have not talked in forever i miss her so bad eaven tho i am talking to her ok later people

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Mon, 19 Nov 2001 02:06:07 GMT

i just got back from Bootcamp it was so hard it suxed every one hates me now for some reason i don't knoe what i did but i am lost again later CARL

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 15 Nov 2001 22:00:32 GMT

i still can't stop thinking about that person it sux i wanna see her so i can stop i hate being depressedwell i am going to go so i can talk to Mollie for a little bit befor i go see Shelly ok later CARL

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 15 Nov 2001 06:32:21 GMT

i am sooo damn pissed i can't read or see any thing that good all's i can think about is someone i won't say cause you might read this and i can't say i frogot why but any ways i am confused oh i have tpo go to bootcamp FUCKING ASS HOLES i hate people today is depressing i can't stop thinking about some one and i like that person and she hate me it sux i don't knoe what to do ok talk to every one later Carl

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Nov 2001 19:51:35 GMT

i am soo happy i got an idea most people don't know what that is but tooo bad for them i will write in here later when i get home ok later Autumn i hope you called or are going to call cause i will be home in like 30 min to an hour

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Nov 2001 05:38:47 GMT

i am sooo happy right now i am talking to Autumn she is soo kool

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Nov 2001 03:44:21 GMT

why am i still here? why am i alive? i don't know what i am thinking i am sooo fucking lost ok talk to some people later

life

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 08 Nov 2001 04:38:17 GMT

life is better now for some reason i don't knoe why but I am soooo happy Autumn talked to me today yay and mollie is not mad at me yay i don't knoe what to say but talk to every one later Carl

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Tue, 06 Nov 2001 21:55:21 GMT

i just got ungrounded today yay i am happy well there ant much to say so i will go but i am boaard so i will proubly write in here again today ok later

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 03 Nov 2001 19:13:21 GMT

i don't knoe what to say but today is good i guess ok later

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Sat, 03 Nov 2001 04:46:54 GMT

ok i didn't have to go to bootcamp yet i will proubly have to go in july i can't go back to skool everyone thinks that i am going to kill my self now it kinda sux but i aam not going to do it i don't eaven think about it that much any more well today suxed i was at the hospital today all day well talk to you all later CARL

What is going to happen tommrow

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Fri, 02 Nov 2001 05:27:55 GMT

i am sooo fucking scared i have to go see my probation officer and i have violated my probation i might be going to juvy or bootcamp i will find out tommrow if i don't i will write in here tommrow if i do i am fucked i won't be back for at least 6 months love you Autumn Mollie and MELANIE later Carl

today

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Fri, 02 Nov 2001 04:28:19 GMT

yesturday was kool today really suxed there was noone kool home or around well i think mollie is going to be at shelly's i will have to go see them ok later oh and Autumn i love you too...

life

Cemeterygates420@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Nov 2001 23:34:24 GMT

life is too damn depressing i don't knoe what i want to do sometimes i want to die like now it feels like the walls are closing in. it is like everyone hates me. there ant much to live for when you can't do anything like leave your house or go smoke a damn cigg it sux. ok i don't knoe what else to say so i am going to get out of here so later..