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Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
12:46 am	i wanna die well today fucking suxed yeah i went to a party for HELEN and she just decied that she wouldn't talk to me or eaven look at me so i just sat there and did nothing but then she deied to start makeing out with this other guy and i was like ok what ever so i go into the other room and here she comes with that guy so i leave again and she decied to stay in one spot and make out so i just sat there and did nothing again and here come some people and talk to me i am like ok sitting there talking and then every one keeps telling me she is making out with a different guy and i just don't knoe what i am going to do!!! I WANNA DIE noone fucking cares about me any more and people say they do but i can't beleave that any more cause that is what helen said too so fuck every thing i wanned to live for life just fucking sux and i wanna die Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Garth Brooks-Much To Yong To Feel This Damn Old (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 29th, 2002
12:32 am	butterfly71418: what u leave for CemeteryGates420: i had to restart butterfly71418: ha ha, told u stop fucking it butterfly71418: u'r doing it to hard CemeteryGates420: lmao butterfly71418: u should ask joe and jeff for pointers, their comps still work so they must not fuck it so hard. CemeteryGates420: lmao butterfly71418: am i funny, i was being serious CemeteryGates420: fuck that that is just rong butterfly71418: lol butterfly71418: thats funny shit. butterfly71418: u know they are just j/k about that and kelley don't hate me eathor WOOHOO Current Mood: crazy Current Music: aretha franklin - Respect (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 28th, 2002
5:44 am	i feel like shitt i don't knoe why i really need to talk to helen but i don't knoe maby she don't wanna talk to me maby she hates me too huh ok i am going to go now i don't knoe what i am going to go do but it will proully sux like my whole life does ! later ~CARL~ Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Six_Feet Under - Maximum Violence - War Machine (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 24th, 2002
12:24 pm	hmmmmmmm i think every one but shelly and Autumn hate me and i don't knoe what i did noone will talk to me becieds them yeah i knoe i spell shitt rong i don't give a fuck i don't think any one is going to read this so fuck it well later ~CARL~ oh yeah and shelly called me a dork :) :) :) Current Mood: cold Current Music: Nirvana - Beans (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 25th, 2001
1:13 am	wtf is happning i think i wanna die again who fucking knoes why i hate fucking stuff now there is like 5 things i see to live for Mollie Autumn Shelly Laney and my computer is that any thing really is that really worth living for ???????? yeah so what 4 people say i should not die that would sux yeah would it really? i don't knoe what to do i think there is really no point to live i am not going to have kids i am not going to do any thing that is good for anyone else there is really nothing i can think of to live for i mean yeah i have a few friends i really care about i don't knoe i am allllll fucked up but fuck it i need to talk to someone but i can't trust any one what am i suppose to do now yeah people say that there is always someone to talk to there isn't fuck that ok i guess if i make it home from florda i will talk to the people that i care about Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Nigger Shitt (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 20th, 2001
9:59 pm	noone ever want's to talk any more it sux there ant any thing to do i am all messed up Current Mood: sad Current Music: Van Halen - Panama (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 29th, 2001
6:21 pm	yeah i am happy cause helen is talking to me i haven't talked to her in forever well i got to to i thnk mollie is mad at me well i hope not but whatever i will talk to every on later Carl Current Mood: happy Current Music: Rage Aginst The Machine - The Gost Of Tom Jones (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 25th, 2001
4:10 pm	i don't knoe what is going on in my life that anyone cares about i am kina happy cause i am talk to Autumn and Mollie but i am confused abut why i am living and shitt like that but what ever noone cares so right in here later CARL Current Mood: confused Current Music: Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 21st, 2001
10:39 pm	i am sooo happy i am talking to laney and we have not talked in forever i miss her so bad eaven tho i am talking to her ok later people Current Mood: happy Current Music: Disterbed-Down With The Sickness (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 18th, 2001
9:00 pm	i just got back from Bootcamp it was so hard it suxed every one hates me now for some reason i don't knoe what i did but i am lost again later CARL Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Alien Antfarm-Smooth Criminal (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 15th, 2001
5:01 pm	i still can't stop thinking about that person it sux i wanna see her so i can stop i hate being depressedwell i am going to go so i can talk to Mollie for a little bit befor i go see Shelly ok later CARL Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Disturbed-Down With The Sickness (Comment on this)
1:33 am	i am sooo damn pissed i can't read or see any thing that good all's i can think about is someone i won't say cause you might read this and i can't say i frogot why but any ways i am confused oh i have tpo go to bootcamp FUCKING ASS HOLES i hate people today is depressing i can't stop thinking about some one and i like that person and she hate me it sux i don't knoe what to do ok talk to every one later Carl Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: NickelBack-This Is How You Remind Me (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 10th, 2001
3:12 pm	i am soo happy i got an idea most people don't know what that is but tooo bad for them i will write in here later when i get home ok later Autumn i hope you called or are going to call cause i will be home in like 30 min to an hour Current Mood: excited Current Music: NONE (Comment on this)
12:36 am	i am sooo happy right now i am talking to Autumn she is soo kool Current Mood: happy Current Music: Jagged Edge-Where The Party At (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 9th, 2001
10:36 pm	why am i still here? why am i alive? i don't know what i am thinking i am sooo fucking lost ok talk to some people later Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Nickleback - This Is How You Remind Me (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 7th, 2001
11:34 pm	life life is better now for some reason i don't knoe why but I am soooo happy Autumn talked to me today yay and mollie is not mad at me yay i don't knoe what to say but talk to every one later Carl Current Mood: awake Current Music: Garth Brooks-Much To Yong To Feel This Damn Old (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 6th, 2001
4:53 pm	i just got ungrounded today yay i am happy well there ant much to say so i will go but i am boaard so i will proubly write in here again today ok later Current Mood: happy Current Music: Slayer-Angel of Death (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 3rd, 2001
2:08 pm	i don't knoe what to say but today is good i guess ok later Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Silverchair-Suicidal Dream (Comment on this)
Friday, November 2nd, 2001
11:41 pm	ok i didn't have to go to bootcamp yet i will proubly have to go in july i can't go back to skool everyone thinks that i am going to kill my self now it kinda sux but i aam not going to do it i don't eaven think about it that much any more well today suxed i was at the hospital today all day well talk to you all later CARL Current Mood: blank Current Music: Garth brooks-Friends In Low Places (Comment on this)
12:24 am	What is going to happen tommrow i am sooo fucking scared i have to go see my probation officer and i have violated my probation i might be going to juvy or bootcamp i will find out tommrow if i don't i will write in here tommrow if i do i am fucked i won't be back for at least 6 months love you Autumn Mollie and MELANIE later Carl Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)